TIME TO BOOK THE BOOKS

lets get geeky...

NERDS

LIFE AS WE KNOW IT

when you wake up every morning and feel the sun...

THAT'S LIFE

REALITY CHECK

i feel so damn INSECURE now... i feel FAT like a fucking bitch... and i feel IGNORED like what jez always says... i feel STUPID like hell... i feel like a LOSER like serious shit...

when in the world am i going to be me... i am me... its just that you don't see it... maybe i should go for my own standards and leave the bastards behind...

help me get to the real world...

oh god have some sympathy...

FOOL

HEADACHES AND HEARTACHES

bla bla bla and after a billion days i get my super semi-annual or whenever-it-wants-to-come-annual headache... i think its a migrane... the longer the hair the more frequent... it hurt still in the morning today but now its flown away i guess...

headaches are so common, its the heartache thats commonly unique... i've had pain and this time it ain't no love... well yeah Chong Wei lost but even that does not hurt as much as being worried...

Dear God... i swear to God You exist... and i believe You will help me out on this one...

today was a fresh start and as soon as i left the car, You put a smile on my face.

Here's the beautiful story:

It was Kartigai the festival to celebrate the birth of Lord Muruga. Everyone would light lamps all over the house at night. Sometimes it would rain and things would go hay wire but this time it was kinda awesome. So there was this girl and here mom. Her mom lit the lamps and placed one on each pillar at the front gate. After everything was done they went into the house. While the mother was placing the lamps the girl would check on every lamp and light it again if the wind blew. The lamp on the left pillar kept blowing out and she knew not what to do. The other lamps were kinda fine except that very one. It blew out about three times and when she was about to finally enter the house it simply blew out again.

she walked straight to that lamp... lit it again... sang it a holy song... and called out "Dear Muruga, please save this lamp from blowing out"

The lamp never blew out that night till the last drop of oil was finished.

JOY

LOOKING RIGHT AT YOU

every time our eyes meet there's a rush in my heart and i gain a new found strength to live and love you more...

when your eyes coincide with mine...

THERE'S MAGIC

I WONDER

life really can bring out the worst in you sometimes... but thats ok with me... life is easy but we'd rather turn it into a complicated game... like hello... live it baby... live it real good... i'm so full of complains but you know what... life on this earth is the best thing that has ever happened to me...

LOVE LIFE

YOU WERE MINE

I WISH

I'VE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH YOU

its hard to explain but its there its true...

if only you could look me in the eye and see that it reflects only you...

you know what??? i am not gonna speak in riddles...

you keep asking me who but i am never gonna tell you...

the day i tell you...

i hope for me to be yours...

just look me once in the eye and it would be the best day that i've ever lived...

hello... i love you

THINK AGAIN WILL YEA

LIKE BUTTERFLIES

cause everytime you ask who???

i say...

YOU

ONCE AGAIN

i dreamt of you and this time you said...

YES

THE JOURNEY

its been years... well actually days since i last blogged... guess i was being a good girl... waka waka... in your dreams... hahaha... so i am so damn lazy to blog about my life but i dropped by to say that my English presentation was fucked and i still exist...

DREAM

DIWALI GALORE

and it was the time of the freaking year they all call deepavali... i didn't get myself new clothes... sorry not in the mood... my cousins came down and so i had to be with them... my sis went to klang to celebrate but i was not allowed to go to my friends house in klang... like wtf... i was super emo because of that... but i was just too happy to care... i was first confused on which temple to go to but finally He led me to the right place... He led me to Him... massive crowd i tell you... i could not even enter but trust me it was worth it... i will tell you all about it... so then we went to another temple and home and i got the best vegetarian cooking in town... mummy curry... its usually always mutton curry but my cousins were vegetarian and i was also so all also veg lah... then we relaxed and i can't remember what happen... oh yeah my parents went to my uncle's house and we weren't invited so i decided to do the kolam... removed the last night's kolam and was up with mine... beautiful it went... then my mom calls and says that we are invited... so my sis and i drive there... awesomeness... so we went and came back and i started on the kolam to finish it before my parents came home... but... it was not finish and i used my sister's tea lights till it nearly finished and so she was pissed and she was mad and we did not play fire crackers... so sad... she is so up to my neck lah... and so i just sat on my dad's car looking at the empty starless sky as the wind blows out all the candles... good for her she can have her candles back... and i was just admiring my kolam that no one did... my uncle said it was nice when he came the next morning... ya ya whatever... that was my deepavali... no friend's open house... no fire crackers... no stars... no celebration... but it was noisy yet peaceful... and here comes the BEST PART

I went to my favourite Sentul temple and so there i was outside not being able to enter but you know what.. despite my sis waiting for me like a vulture i still kept praying and praying and praying till i reached the front of the temple... right in front of Him... and my dad asked if i wanted and ang pau and i said yes and i made him give me RM10.00 and i happily gave it to the priest wishing that man Happy Deepavali... so nice to have acknowledged the priest... he is a good man... and since i saved money i could give RM1.00 to the temple piggy bank... everyone had to push their money in but my money just fell in smoothly... so happy that He accepted my money with ease... i didn't see the peacocks well but the best of the best was the fact that i finally saw that Chinese man... he used to be a priest helper and he always gave me sour rice when i went to the temple... the other when i came he wasn't there and i missed him as he got on the bus... today he was there by the pillar and i held his hand and wished him Happy Deepavali... this was the most beautiful part of my Deepavali... He made it all happen... He is really there...

PEACE CAME FROM WITHIN

THE MENACING YOU

its kinda hard to think about you... you are such a bully and sometimes i just love it all...

DENNIS THE MENACE

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live your life

ENJOY

HUNTING THE HUNKS

sometimes they make me melt

SO FINE

POISE

a 35 year old pregnant chick

YUMMY MUMMY