THE BLACK EYES

This is my current profile picture with an I-don't-know-why-pink background... must have been the download... so yeah... this is it...

What does it mean?

It means i'm turning gothic but my parents won't let me of course cause it would be a disgrace the the society and of course i never told them that i wanted to the gothic... WHATEVER...

it's nice, kinda like the dark forces plus i've just fallen out of love and so this is the perfect colour to choose but whats more death defying is

PINK...

hyperness right... even black can't kill but pink can... i guess girl power can do anything huh???

bla bla bla, lets rock and roll on the floor like babies would do with their freaking dogs... this soooo feels like Stewie and Brian.... hahahahaha

I am SUPER PECULIAR right now like an awkward green...

go go gothic power...

alright, so imma be a bitch now and you... you just....

WATCH ME

YOU'RE MY HEART BREAK LULLABY

so this is it, we've come to an end... all i wanna say is thank you for being so kind to not blow it for me and make me feel like an idiot... you were calm and smart and CLUELESS and i really loved that... i aint gonna give you more clues for this is it...

the only thing that hurts now is that, you're pretty much ignoring me and really that aint nice, maybe a hello or a like would do...

i see you, but i don't know if you see me... maybe one side loves are pretty fucked...

its all gone behind and imma say its a dark past that i would never want to return to so just remain there for me so i don't feel so sucky after all...

PLEASE

SHHH...

keep it save to yourself, close to your heart

i love you, and that's all that i've got

A SECRET

SO LONG, FAREWELL

IT'S ONLY JUST THE BEGINNING

DONE WITH SCREWING

and so today my exams were officially done with and it was fucked... especially the last two... accounts and econs the most unexpected hard core shit of all times... been getting distinctions all the way and here comes my very first pass i hope not... what am i to do... go 1U...

LEPAK

TIME TO BOOK THE BOOKS

lets get geeky...

NERDS

LIFE AS WE KNOW IT

when you wake up every morning and feel the sun...

THAT'S LIFE

REALITY CHECK

i feel so damn INSECURE now... i feel FAT like a fucking bitch... and i feel IGNORED like what jez always says... i feel STUPID like hell... i feel like a LOSER like serious shit...

when in the world am i going to be me... i am me... its just that you don't see it... maybe i should go for my own standards and leave the bastards behind...

help me get to the real world...

oh god have some sympathy...

FOOL

HEADACHES AND HEARTACHES

bla bla bla and after a billion days i get my super semi-annual or whenever-it-wants-to-come-annual headache... i think its a migrane... the longer the hair the more frequent... it hurt still in the morning today but now its flown away i guess...

headaches are so common, its the heartache thats commonly unique... i've had pain and this time it ain't no love... well yeah Chong Wei lost but even that does not hurt as much as being worried...

Dear God... i swear to God You exist... and i believe You will help me out on this one...

today was a fresh start and as soon as i left the car, You put a smile on my face.

Here's the beautiful story:

It was Kartigai the festival to celebrate the birth of Lord Muruga. Everyone would light lamps all over the house at night. Sometimes it would rain and things would go hay wire but this time it was kinda awesome. So there was this girl and here mom. Her mom lit the lamps and placed one on each pillar at the front gate. After everything was done they went into the house. While the mother was placing the lamps the girl would check on every lamp and light it again if the wind blew. The lamp on the left pillar kept blowing out and she knew not what to do. The other lamps were kinda fine except that very one. It blew out about three times and when she was about to finally enter the house it simply blew out again.

she walked straight to that lamp... lit it again... sang it a holy song... and called out "Dear Muruga, please save this lamp from blowing out"

The lamp never blew out that night till the last drop of oil was finished.

JOY

LOOKING RIGHT AT YOU

every time our eyes meet there's a rush in my heart and i gain a new found strength to live and love you more...

when your eyes coincide with mine...

THERE'S MAGIC